Like someone reached down and grabbed me by my roots
Left a dirt trail behind them
Crumbles that were the massive endeavor of an open heart
The type of growing pains you can see and feel
Like bones breaking in transformation
A full moon nightmare
Resisting the urge to cave back in
I know I came here for a reason
I know I’m getting taller despite
the shrinking feeling in my chest
Heart chocking on its own beating
Throat suffocating its own voice
Lungs stifling their own breath
This is not self inflicted
This is giving
This is painted the color of blame
This is trying
This is the gift of good faith
A thankless achievement
Soaring up to the sun
Returning only blistered and blinded
And unsure if I can heal in time
to remember what it felt like to fly into the light