You are a dangerously tempting current
Swimming with you pulls me too far out
Swimming against you is impossible
And the moon will only light the way
Until the clouds roll in
And they will roll in
I believed in you until I didn’t
Trust was unwavering until it wasn’t
You were a soft place to land
Until you turned to stone
Cracks in your pavement should have been a warning
There’s been trouble here before
But I had a steady place to plant my feet
And your eyes were kind
I remember when you asked me
Will you do whatever it takes
You asked me
My response was my punishment
I let go of the wind
And held onto your coattails
You sang songs to lure me in
And then scolded me for singing along
You stand next to me now
There’s a lot behind your eyes
That I can’t see anymore
I hear words in a language I can’t speak
You’re at a distance I will never reach
I wouldn’t dare take the chance
You’re in a world that does not look safe to me
Dark shadows fly around you
And I pray they don’t get too close
But I fear they have already gotten what they came for
You were the sunshine
You were warm and all encompassing
But you were broken in a way I couldn’t understand
Your bits and pieces too heavy for me to lift
Your cracks so big I fell in
Landed in the middle of the ocean
And when I finally got sight of the shore
The current kept pushing me back out
And back out
And back out
You knew I would tire out
You knew I wasn’t strong enough to keep going
So I let my flailing arms and legs rest
And I laid on my back
Felt the water tickle my ears and sides of my face
As I rose and sank with the motion of the water
And just as I gave in
I was set free
You say my poetry is too depressing
Here is a happy ending for you
I am more in love with myself than
I ever was with you
I met someone so trustworthy
So loyal
So uplifting
So passionate
She isn’t condescending
Or judgmental
She is a much better lover than you
And she will never abandon me for someone else